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11
Nov
09

my response

it got way crazier than i expected on facebook the other day. (you can see for yourself here.) as most people know, i am for universal health care. i don’t believe in socialism, fascism, communism, capitalism, or too many other “-ism’s” for that matter. ferris bueller taught me that. the only beliefs i truly regard and try to follow are those passed down throughout the bible; specifically, what Jesus taught about loving God the Father and loving our neighbor as ourselves. after reading through the currently 46 comments, i thought i should maybe take the time to explain the reasons about why i’m so vocal about this issue.

i had health insurance as a kid, and like most kids, never really thought about it. then i turned 18 and was no longer under my mom’s coverage unless i currently lived with them and was in school. that only lasted a year. my mom and her new husband moved and i made a very difficult decision to stay in riverside despite not having a car that worked, a consistently paying job, or a place to live. i was a homeless college dropout for precisely one week. i also for the first time realized that i had almost literally no safety net. if i got sick, i couldn’t afford to get help. because i was technically self-employed i couldn’t qualify for low-income care either. fortunately, i’m a relatively healthy person overall and nothing really happened. during the two and a half years between then and when i got married, that was my situation. i got married and my wife happened to be going to a medical school. she had great coverage simply by being a student, but student’s spouses aren’t covered by that. we made just enough money to get by and there was definitely no room in our budget for me to buy health insurance. one day, i got sick. it was different than any other kind of sickness i’d ever dealt with, and i was scared. after a couple days, we made the hard decision to go to the emergency room. my poor wife was so scared and worried about what it was going to cost us. we were just hoping and praying that it wasn’t something worse than it was for the sake of my well-being and eventually our finances. in the end, the virus of whatever it was ended up lasting about five days and i’m no worse for the wear. after a 20 minute doctor visit and a quick lab test, it actually only cost us about $150. it was a ton of money to us at the time, but we were able to pay it eventually. i can’t help but think about what might have happened if it would have been something worse though. it would have put us so deep into a financial hole that, between student loan payments and the the current economic climate, i don’t know we would have been able to get out of for quite some time.

i’m not for universal health care because i so strongly believe that wealthy people need to share. i think they should though, and hope that were i in their position would hold to that value. i honestly don’t care about the particulars of one reform plan versus another. also, the more i think about it, the more i become convicted that i shouldn’t care if illegal immigrants get health care or not. that last one is a struggle for me. my true honest belief that is the one that makes me think that health care for all should be a reality is that according to the Christian faith, money is not something to be withheld to the detriment of others. believe me, as far as political ideologies are concerned, i am for as little government as possible. our government is going to take our money anyway, and if they’re going to take it and use it for something like universal health care, then i’m much more ok with that than the myriad other uses of tax dollars.

i also feel the need to be completely open about the fact this isn’t some conviction i’ve decided upon a whim either. i struggle with this. like i said already, i’m not a fan of big government or even necessarily higher taxes. also, i periodically have to truly check my motives, more so if i’m bringing my religious convictions into play. i truly believe that every human being is a child of God whether they acknowledge that or not. we could very well be spending eternity with those souls our greed and selfishness has caused us to turn our backs on. most of my life i’ve felt like i didn’t totally agree with the idea of “christians are by default aligned with the republican right,” and a lot of the time feel like i’m fighting against a stereotype. if there’s one thing i’ve learned though, it’s that “fighting against” something is rarely, if ever, a better idea than fighting for something.

i don’t expect to have changed anyone’s mind with writing this. the most i’m really hoping is for whoever reads this to have a better understanding about where i’m coming from with this. in the meantime, let’s keep challenging each other. please, let’s all be checking our motives though, especially those of us who are called to have more eternally minded motives

04
Nov
09

a belated halloween story

i know it’s a little late and all, but this is one of those childhood stories that kinda comes back to you about 20 years later and then suddenly a lot of your life makes more sense. just felt like i should share it is all.

growing up, i never got into halloween stuff all that much. i only went trick or treating a few times that i can remember and the rest of the time i was passing out candy. me and my mom would usually hang out at home and just watch tv. this was back before every church had their “safe not-halloween but you can still dress up” activity. i didn’t really even get into the candy thing very much, because i was never a huge chocolate or candy corn person. by the early teenage years, i was totally over the dressing up thing and just barely starting to show interest in scary movies. in the past couple years, i’ve started to really enjoy some of the halloween type things like scary movies and the creativity of certain kinds of costumes. i’m especially fond of zombie movies, and not just because of the obvious social commentaries the better ones offer. (deep down, i think every guy is anxiously awaiting the day when the undead rise with a taste for human flesh and we get to use that double-barreled shotgun for its true purpose.) but considering the kind of things i enjoy now, i was thinking back and trying to remember why i never got into halloween when i was younger. i remember now.

when i was 5 or 6 years old, i remember that i was very excited to dress up for halloween. my mom asked me what i wanted to be, and i told her very matter of factly, “i wanna be dracula!” she didn’t seem very enthused about that idea, but she didn’t give me an outright “no” either. i think that got my hopes up. it was gonna be great, i was going to go around scaring people and be downright horrifying. i was going to just as scary as nosferatu himself. i was in kindergarten though. like it or not, my mom was the one who would be paying for the costume, so she got the final verdict on what i was going to dress up as. below is a picture that is, to the best of my memory, almost identical to what i wore on halloween that year. enjoy.

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